God still teaches

February 15, 2004

Personal Narrations

Joel Akin

Calgary, Alberta

I have wondered why the Physical part of Gods healing has not started. It is a legitimate question because I had an answer from God a few weeks back that the answer has broken through. Why then had it not reached me? But it wasn't just that question I did not have an answer to.

So God began to show me that before my physical healing could be complete and received my internal healing had to be finished as well. He reminded me of all the changes that have taken place inside. I was no longer living a world of guilt for past failures. I was no longer dealing with heavy fear. I was no longer worried if I had enough faith. And the list goes on. The person I was and the person I am, internally at least, are different. I feel I am a stronger person then I was emotionally. And my will is slowly coming into line with Gods plan.

Yet there is another thing that I let myself fall into. That is being a man pleaser. God has told me this is something I will need several years to work out. I know He is right. I guess part of me has been trained by the church to not only love everyone but to try and please them too. The idea that you can love someone and yet walk away is a new thing to me. Or listen but still not compromise or change your belief because you don't as yet have a clear answer. So in reading the Internet I've come to realize everyone has their opinion. One guy yesterday really bothered me. He stated how dare mankind think that people today are like Paul or Jesus of yesterday with a new message. He went on to say God said it when it needed to be said, the Bible is done and finished, and that is all that is needed. To do more will be blasphemy.

I know what he is trying to say because I've been raised that way myself to a degree. Mankind is striving to learn how God speaks but the idea that He still speaks is a frightening thought. But as I 'listened' to God I began to understand something that has been lost in the translation. God not only loved us but still loves us. God not only spoke but He still speaks. But because so few are really listening or seeking to listen, for whatever reason, God remains silent or seems to. But the net guy raises a great point. So I ask, Have we reached a place where we are now worshipping a book and not the creator of that book? Are we worshipping the ideas in it but not the one to whom those ideas apply?

For the pastors have become leaders and call themselves leaders but that's not supposed to be their main purpose. Their purpose is that of Guide so they can lead them to a direct relationship with the great shepherd. But the leaders cannot do so for they have forgotten themselves how to find God. Or should I say, in defense, that they know of God but not the powerful Christ we find in the gospel. I've said this before but the Lights are out in the church and no one knows how to turn the power back on.

So the church substitutes enthusiasm, noise, music, charisma, ritual and more as the substitute.

I am not saying God does not show up in small ways but they don't understand if they want to see power, and some don't, then they must find the origin of the blockages. We know the main power source is there. We know there is a spiritual blockage called Satan and his forces. But there is also something that we must deal with on our side to overcome.

Every few weeks I get mail from this prophetic list and the more well know prophets send in what God is showing them. To my surprise one of them sent in this word. The lamp of the church that is set on a hill is gone out and the glory of God has departed. That sounds like what I said though much better stated. But it confirmed what God had been showing me. This does not mean some churches are not moving but the church overall has lost its authority and light. Thus God must do something to wake us up, perhaps a time of stumbling in the dark, before we find that main power switch once again.