Clarity

May 30, 2004

Personal Narrations

Joel Akin

Calgary, Alberta

I've been dealing with the issue of standing because I felt there was more to understand. God uses dreams to show me things and there is depth to them if I will take time to knock and ask God for clarification. In this case I really did not understand what standing really was nor the part that God was playing. Nor did I fully understand how Satan could release, who the owner was, and so many other questions. When the understanding came it was like a spiritual release. I can't explain it fully with words. And when I first try to explain revelation it doesn't always come across clearly so stay with me.

Last week God had me take on the authority over very specific things. Each night God went through each prayer with me and showed me how to pray and what to pray for. And then after I prayed God asked me to release to Him those prayers. So each night I discussed the specific prayers, took the authority over them and then turned around and gave them back to God. In fact He made it clear that I was to turn these prayers over to Him and not to pick them up again. In other words instead of repeating each prayer multiple times God instructed me very clearly to pray once and then to stand.

Sure a lot of this makes sense until you really start to get into it. Then all kinds of questions crop up. Why release to God? Why stand? Why not pray more then once. What is standing. What is authority. What is God doing with it.

God told me tonight He loves when I ask questions like this and not to consider any question too sacred or stupid. In other words God wanted me to understand. Now I could go into all the questions I asked and all the questions God asked me but you get to hear the answers.

The best way to describe this to you is the dream God gave me months ago where I was standing near a crane with a camera around my neck. Surrounding me were 7 men with baseball bats, who God stated represented 7 legions of demonic spirits. In the dream God instructed me to stand firm and not move nor lash out with my camera. As I stood there the men one by one took their bats and placed them in the cab of the crane except for the final man who smashed his bat against the steel exterior of the cab to no avail.

The understanding of that dream still continues but I believe that much of it is now coming to pass. The whole dream has powerful meaning so bear with me. You must understand as I was praying for understanding tonight that I just could not see how the whole picture was taking place nor how God was working things out.

The crane, I believe, represents Earth House, which is the vision God has given me. But as owner of this world Satan now controls it and has authority over it and all the others things I've been praying for. But the camera is the record of my authority over Satan and all his powers. But what I could not understand is why God had me reveal that power but would not let me use it. So as I prayed tonight that was just one of the questions I was seeking resolution on.

Lets deal with authority again. Now that I have been granted authority God had to teach me how to use it legally within His teaching and will. God showed me that it was like a policeman who wants to seize certain property but before he can do so he has to obtain a court order from the judge. Then he can go in and seize that property in a legal manner that will stand up in court. In this case I am the policeman and God is the judge. God and I worked out what I needed to obtain Earth House and the other tools that I will need to fulfill His will. Then He had me pray, take authority, and then release everything to His care.

So as I took authority I then released it into Gods care. But why? Why not keep fighting? Why not keep praying about it? Why turn it over to God? Here is what God showed me. Just having authority is not enough. It is only part of the whole picture. There is also the essentialness of standing. Standing firm in faith. That IS what I must do. Stand firm in faith so that Satan and his army will not only see but recognize that authority and faith. If I do not do my part then God cannot do His part.

And that is the key. Because here is what happens. As I pray and then take authority over Satan I literally 'take' and then Satan must release. But what I didn't know was the part God played in all this. So God showed me that by turning things over to Him a vast number of things began to take place.

Lets deal with issue number one. Release. I had assumed that because Satan owned it that he would release it to me directly. God showed me how wrong I was in this. He said this is the way the church works today but He said because they obtain it by human means it is corrupted. What God does is once I turn authority over to Him He goes to work on my behalf. While I am standing in faith He is going out and making sure that Satan is letting go of anything that would stand in the way of my receiving. But when Satan lets go it does not come directly from Satan to me. God said if it did so it would be filthy and tainted by death. Satan is the owner of it but by 'faith' I am taking it and then giving the taking of it to God. What God does, is once I release it to His care, is He then can sanctify and purify it. Like the scripture that says Every Good gift and pure gift comes Down from the father. In other words the reason God showed me that taking authority just to take authority, without His will or permission, I am, in a sense, touching things that are corrupted. But when I work in union with God, by His will and by His direction, He can take the prayers I make and sanctify them.

Now why then should I not continue to pray but stand firm in the original prayer? Why not pick it up again? God showed me several things here. First was that when I try to pick up something that I have already given to God I am now working not in faith but in the flesh. This explains so clearly many dreams I've had where when I'm preaching and Gods spirit is moving men touch me and that anointing is affected. In other words God doesn't need my help. He doesn't need me to do anything at this stage except stand.

The second point is that I am a conduit for Gods power but I am just a conduit. The Bible calls us lamps and in one dream God showed me fighting Satan by plugging in my lamp and turning the light on him. In other words what is happening here is critical. I am not touching it but turning everything back to God so that HE can get the glory. If Joel Akin were out there taking authority wily nilly and doing anything I pleased, as I pleased, then God would become second place. By taking authority and then returning it to God I am recognizing that He is more powerful then me and that my power comes from Him.

God showed me I do have authority and I can fight and overcome Satan. But by recognizing God and turning that authority back to Him not only does He get the glory but He is 10,000 times more powerful in dealing with Satan then I am. If I were spending my time fighting Satan on my own and in my own strength I would have little time for my relationship with God. So this standing is Gods way of showing me that all I need to do is trust and wait while He takes what I have given him, makes sure it is released properly, sanctified, and then can bring me all the good gifts He desires.

You see that is the part I really didn't understand. If Satan releases does he then give? And God showed me Satan doesn't.

The best way to understand this is God needed someone on earth to overcome Satan in order to release His power through that person. It is not that God is powerless it is just that to see true supernatural power He needs someone who will overcome then stand. Now that God explained it to me it is so incredibly simple and perfect.

Three notes of final interest before I close.

1. Mom-I shared with her about the breech birth and indicated that God was saying my concern for her was holding me back. And God was saying we had to release each other. I felt I had to tell her. She sat there this afternoon and just wept. Part of me felt so sad but another part rejoiced because I realize how important this was. And she agreed that I had to do Gods will no matter what.

2. Dad told me God woke him up around 4 this morning and told him to listen to Joel and the things I had shared with him. This was pretty powerful stuff for me.

3. A relative came over for a visit, to mow the lawn and such. She sat there while I talked to her for what seemed like maybe an hour. Mom said it was much longer. She is struggling big time with her walk with God right now and in a place of indecision and drifting. Though I can only whisper and not even loud enough to be heard on the phone yet she was clinging to my every word. I asked her about it and she said she had never heard anyone talk like I did and she said especially not in the church. I felt sad about that part. I finally had to tell her to leave and I could tell she didn't want to but it was getting late and I needed to do things before I went to bed to pray. But God seems to be doing something in me I cannot explain but it is powerful, rich and wonderful. Sometimes I wonder why some people seem so blasé about what God is doing in me. I've noticed some people just sit there as if things I say they hear every day. But maybe that's just me and my desire to be liked.