The be or the ba in sheep

August 17, 2007

Joel Akin

 It was a day to remember. I guess one could say that. First I heard from Daystar via Paula Cavu that there were those who were dreaming the rapture was soon. I've been in prayer over the rapture and am trusting God to bring it to pass soon. Dad and I went to various places to do some simple things. I still like to have someone with me in case spasms kick in. Its not something I like but its something I still am dealing with. I also noticed dad was looking small and shaky this afternoon and that bothers me. I see mom that way and she is losing weight and getting closer to 100 pounds. It might not seem bad except she spent her entire adult weight about 30-40 pounds heavier. And that weight isn't something that is easy for her to put back on.

 I've been weak myself. Still in fire and brimstone. Still fighting with spiritual forces. Still dealing with a spirit of lie. It is a lying spirit because I hear things that try to sound like God. God has his way of breaking locks and He doesn't need anyone to deal with death or Death. In other words if you play with fire you had better expect to get fried. For God is coming soon and He is going to deal with evil His way.

Now I know who the culprit is. It is like the spirit of evil and like the spirit of lie and like the spirit of sin and like the spirit of Time. But it isn't the big Time nor the small time nor the little sin but an evil being named Ti Ma.

Now Ti Ma is an evil wisdom. Evil means that they are like a woman who merits function of weight. The weight comes on at their ease and at their muster. They take it and feed it to time and to sin and to evil. Evil comes and prides itself on weight and says My My, how wicked looking we are. Only it is spirit weight we are referring to.

Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset [us], and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

Now this weight is different in one sense in that it doesn't speak of spiritual evil. It does though speak of to lay aside every weight. Each weight is like a transaction for sin. Sin is the weight added to our life. For example I mention mom and dad as taking on the weight of time and sickness. I see my dad and it hurts. I see mom differently but still with hurt. I see myself in pictures and it hurts. That is because I also have taken on the weight of time.

Time is the thing which will vanish away but in the meantime we deal with spiritual forces who hinder God. These forces are like dynamos which are belting out knowledge. But it isn't knowledge pleasing God but knowledge that is like chaos in motion. So the chaos is whirling around and it gets noise like thunder. God tries to speak but its as if he is surrounded with party goers and he is trying to have fun but differently. That is he is trying to have fun with prayer.

Prayer is fun and it is energizing but so are the evil spirits. So God does something that changes things. He builds up momentum and he turns the clock and he breaks the lock and he checks in. Then He says "Listen, it is time to move things up to the new time. Wait a minute and then synchronize with me."

 While I wait I just heard my brother is considering going garage saling with me. For some reason there is no saling that I'm aware of. There is however sailing. So maybe when God showed me an empty garage sailing through the skies He was giving me a hint to the word. For if sailing is what I do then maybe it might be sailing island to island.

Imagine you were a home owner and you built things for people but you wanted to be left alone. Now imagine people dropped off supplies and you built things for them. It was your time and you had visitors no more then once a month. Each month fresh supplies were dropped off on your island by sail and then by boat. The sail part was where you had a catalog and ordered it via the Net. Now that would be the way it worked in Heaven. You would live on a deserted island or with many people. If you lived with others you would have high rises. If you lived alone you would have neighbors but they would be the visitors who bring you fresh produce. You never need to worry or fret you'll have people bothering you.

Some would say it sounds wonderful but imagine I was there and I said I would like to visit. You don't want to make me upset but at the same time you don't want to ignore me because I help you with finances. So you say when to come and I visit within that period.

Now suppose God were the one we wanted to come and visit but He was frustrated because I was always in conference. That is the spirits told him I was always busy. He waited and waited and waited but they lied to him. He knew it but he also knew I wrote. So He inspired me to write a story and I did about garage sailing. This time with sailing for if God wanted to He could make an entire world. In fact imagine that I traveled from island to island as a habit? And imagine the habit was a small boat I had which sailed the sea of tomorrow. Would it be strange if I rode in on the wave and sailed in on the sea? Would it be improper of God to ride in tomorrow? Would it seem strange if He came bearing gift after gift for men?

Now we know that we want to go garage sailing but in the future God wants to change how its done for the simple fact that we always fail. That is we can go to ten sales and not find anything of value. But I go to the store and I know there will be something I want.

So imagine when I get to heaven God is going to deal with me in a way that will help me understand. Not the value of garages but the value of a cleaned up garage. And to do that He had to help me find a way of dealing with garbage.

Now I went to Ray Neighbor yesterday and loaded up my truck with his garbage. He was pleased and I was punch. I took the dirty chair to my sister but she probably didn't want it that bad because she didn't say much. And if she did she didn't tell me. But suppose that chair were valued because it was free? Would anyone want it? More then half the world probably but it was in his garbage. We have a rule here you knock on a door if you take something. That is unless it prescribes trouble for you in your conscience. And so I do occasionally find things but it always gets me into conscience. That is because some of it seems valuable. It usually has flaws and probably has problems but if I could overcome the junk in the curb issue it would be that people put out garbage as garbage and treasure as free stuff. Others have done it by putting free on it and some swarm over it like locusts and wild honey.

And so if I find it by the curb and it looks valuable I would hope I would ask unless there is a sign there which says sail in progress. Well, maybe sale in progress.

However to do this requires time for people want to achieve their goals. People of heaven want to swim and relax and have fun. And to go to a sale just to go to a sale is like going fishing just for the fun of it. Its like catch and release because usually you don't catch anything of value.

Now I am wore out very easily. Not because of failure on my part but because I've been in warfare. I go out and fight for spiritual fun. It is partly true but I get upset because I hear a rumor that it is now illegal to go fishing on the local rivers with live bait. I haven't confirmed it but if so goodbye digging for worms. Goodbye using minnows or grubs. Goodbye finding larvae or worms of conscience. Because if the world we live in is run to the ground it is because of men who abuse it. They use it until it turns to debris. It becomes garbage. And so they turn off men who use it with wisdom. They don't clean up the camp of its scraps. Yet I do that every time. I keep a clean ship when I camp even though I'm disabled. I do it because I have to. I go back there again and again.

Now God isn't saying I'm a failure but is saying I need help. He is saying this to me so I quit saying "I'm sorry" so much. Its okay to say but it needs to be in context. For example the weight of evil is such that God is frying them up for Sunday but not for food. He is going to make Sunday the end and not the first of the week. That is because Sunday is going to be the day when everyone goes to church in nature or to a garage sale (sail) and to have fun.

We as a people of law have abused the system. We have tried it and broken it. We have taken what was fun and have stirred in the dark star. We have made the world an abyss. We have turned it into the darkest corner of the galaxy. We have abused it with religion. Not of Christ but of men of God. We call it ours and it is but it is given to us by God. I go out and try to quell the day star with dreams and that is a way of saying I try to appease things by seeing a dream of the rapture as a good thing. I am one of the few. Most of us are praying it doesn't come until our loved ones are saved. But if they are saved it will be by having a rapture.

So I'm here to proclaim the rapture of the church. I'm here to proclaim it. I'm here to make it a part of the story of love. For God isn't going to let evil triumph. He saw it happen before but He has a friend who is fighting harder then hard. And so I had to become hard and harder and hardier then hardy. And Bill that charge to my friend Bill Hardy. Because of all people out there he knows pain. He knows suffering. He knows me. He may not have searched for me but if he does and finds himself here then let him know I miss talking with him. I haven't fainted but I have lost touch. So write.

I write that by faith because Bill and I went to Lee together. We had friendship that was close. I call him cool and he is. He is fun to be around and was a man faithful in his walk. He was broken by the system but didn't let it stop him. God has him on his walk of faith for God is going to deliver him and make him an example. And that is a good thing.

It is also true God showed me Dave and Dave. Dave Rickaby is a friend who chose to walk on the choo side of things. That is trains. He is fanatical about them as I am about books. He loves them and is a great photographer on top of that. He also writes about trains.

Another good friend is David J King. His family represented love in my story. He was the Jonathan of my youth and when he met Sue she stole his heart. But I didn't mind because I knew he needed love. And he found it. Yet of all people Christ showed himself as a man like David. He was a man after my own heart. He was a carpenter and gave me wisdom. I search the world for men like them and still haven't found many. Most were rare and some were so rare I didn't know it. But God brought them together in one place and that was at Lee. That is for Bill and David. There were others close to my heart. I loved Bruce and still do. He was and is one of the best tennis players out there. And so I made friends with him and Mark who called himself the perfect man. In many ways he was. He married and probably has kids by now and I think most of them did. I was a lone star that never met hi ho silver. I just couldn't settle down.

Anyway that minute is over. God is coming. He is about to split the Eastern sky and bring to pass all the things that we of this earth wanted. He is going to change the name of the story. He is going to give us the dream software and it is going to be fun to use. And if I find time I will tell you how I know. But here is a clue to it. In the beginning God made a word for me called Tea. He said "If I call him tea people will think that strange." So I'm going to show him a thousand ways of making tea. And it will all be strange. But it will be a thousand ways to boil water."

Now God knew that I couldn't figure that one out. True there is wood and there is gas and there is campstove. But how can you boil water or make tea a thousand ways? The answer is wait. For God knows I think of a thousand different suns. But what if God said I would have children by the million? Then they would be responsible for being in the story with me. And they would wonder if I forgot their name as friend.

So instead of naming them all I will tell you the best friend I ever made was God. He broke me into a thousand pieces and handed me out to a thousand people. He said "I will tell them all that Joel is real." Of course they all had a thousand names for me but all began with T. One was Chi and it was the name of Tea in China. Was was E and it was the name of Energy. And one was Time and that was God who made a way for me to be there from the beginning. And so it was written in time that God would find me at the end. He said "I will never leave you or forsake you. I will be with you always."

So I sat and wondered for I didn't know what it meant. After all if I were the tea of the story who would want me except American or British? For if British they would be Lord of the Hot tea. And if American they would be kin to the Cold. So Jesus said "I'd rather have you hot or cold." and it was so.

I then went to bed and rang for maid service and said "I'll finish that tea now" and of course she knew that I never drank it hot. I only drank it with ice. And perhaps that is why God made Just Ice.