Seeing sign after sign

August 21, 2007

Joel Akin

 We begin with a morning stroll. It is about 7:15 and it is time for Don, Joanne and the Coach in the morning on Lite 96. I listen to these humble servants of Calgary and they make me smile. I think because they talk about what it would be like to be king or queen and then they say "Na" because its not their style.

 Sometimes I wonder about things. Why do people say what they say? Are we all lead or guided? And if so who is it that guides us?

I ask this a multitude of times for chance writes stories. And in the story there is often perfection so clear I wonder "Who is this artist?" For in the random collection of thoughts and motion there is will. And that will seems to be the hand of God.

Yet who among us really sees? I try and I learn. I see the hand of God and I wonder "Why can't others seem to see?" And I think its because the people of this world either believe we are alone or maybe God isn't in charge. I know I've wondered that at times when the enemy comes in like a flood.

Yet of all things I desire most it is for God to lead. I often wonder if I overcome with desire when God has a better idea. For example I'm searching for a way to obtain a new software and I have found a place that sells it for cheap. It isn't Ebay because they don't sell it cheap. It is a place which guarantees you can order it with license with the company only it doesn't come with anything but the software.

Perhaps that is the way we were born into earth. We had inbuilt software that gave us ability to learn. We had hardware which adapted as we grew. But along the way things fell apart and we began falling to pieces. And so we had to adapt our lives to revolve around our health issues. And again that wasn't fun.

But how do I deal with signs? I have myself said you can't trust just one sign but what do you do when the sign is written out in language so clear you can't mistake it? Does it then mean something?

Among these is a sign in the heavens overhead. Occasionally I'll see clouds and I'll think "Those are nice" and I go on. But once in a while there are clouds which stop me in my tracks. I see them and they speak to me in image. Some may doubt this ability but it works for me because I've learned how to observe. And sometimes the signs I get are simple and have meaning.

 So on the walk I saw a small cloud. It was broken up into four major symbols. It was at first a logo of a dinosaur like they used to have on the Sinclair gas stations. I think they used to call it a Brontosaurus. But along the way we change things so it probably has a bigger name now. Frankly I liked the name but that is the way of life.

 Now God has shown me this Bronto before. We talked about it and I wrote about it a month or two ago. It was significant to me for various reasons. Among them is it represented the age of the dinosaur and it is assumed that it also represented the age of the serpent. The serpent was the giant and the giant was based on antithesis of life. That is they were so huge they lifted themselves up to heaven and said "We are in control". Now that might sound foolish but they were monster creatures.

 Now among them was the Brontosaurus. It was symbol of massive when I was a kid and it was symbol to the oil company. It was at this gas station I had my first job. I guess I helped for a while passing out pamphlets for the Sinclair gas station run by my aunt and uncle. They had it on the corner and it was small and people came and got gas but I don't remember if I got to pump. I may have. Who knows what a five year old might have done back then.

 The giant reptile represented oil and it was oil which was represented in the cloud. It was the Brontosaurus and he was staring at a tombstone. I didn't see if it had anything written on it but I could see it had the shape of a tombstone.

Now the story wasn't finished. Among the things God and I talked about was the all seeing eye which is on the American dollar. It was the top which was the eye and the eye was a story supposedly representing a vast conspiracy of the Masons. It may have some significance to them but it wasn't the story they knew. God showed me the real truth and that was a ship which landed on earth. For the third symbol was a pyramid. It was sitting on top of the earth and there was an image in the clouds of the top half of the earth.

Now the pyramid turned into a lamp and the lamp was sitting on the earth. But the lamp was pointing toward the tombstone. It was saying to me that God had made the eye or the lamp the light of the world. It had also made the light shine upon the tombstone. And the tombstone was being lighted by the light of the lamp.

Matthew 6:22 The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.

It is an interesting verse but mainly because it speaks of the lamp. The lamp is there to guide and lead and show and reveal. It is a single eye. A single eye is symbolic of our being lead by a single God. Single as in one who also is whole and complete. Single means to be whole and not just one.

So in the sense of this story we are being guided by God to the point we are able to see. And God showed us we are part of the eye which is lighting the world. The world is being guided by God but there are those we can call angels who are being lead by God also. They may have craft that is beyond understanding but some of us are simple in that we see things only one way. It may be God uses people who understand the problem to guide the world in affairs of the heart or affairs of the soul.

And so in this sense we have a giant dinosaur. Perhaps it does represent Leviathan but it also represents the end of an age. We are an age which garnered wealth and grew because of oil. Our age was prosperous but we did not remember the God of our fathers. And so we lost sight that we were in a war with Sin and with Death. And if we could see it was God who showed me that I was dealing with evil spirits. They were not showing me the cloud which was composed of simple things but they were showing the world under them was in a realm of darkness. They were the age that was before man. They were the giants and the reptiles. They were in the garden of Eden and they were still there when God cast them off their legs. They shrank in size and tried to conquer the world they lived in. Some of them still do show their like for the world of death. That is the adder or asp. It is the one God said would not harm on the holy mountain. They would eat dust.

Dust is symbolic of the worm and so the worm will become the food of the asp. It will grow large perhaps but it will be a symbol of the worm. And it will change its nature so the clasp of its grip will not poison us.

And yet I said sign after sign and perhaps it is the software I spoke of. I asked God to guide me and lead me and so today I went back and the price had risen from about a hundred to probably over five hundred at the close. It was expensive and I wondered "God, do I wait for money or do I buy it elsewhere." For God doesn't stop us from obtaining things to aid us in our life. He only lets things happen that are there to lead. So if I go there and find that I can't obtain what I need then God has another idea. Sometimes it is wait. But often it is trust.

Now I say that because of a camera I picked up at a garage sale. I was really excited about it. It was a Nikon and what I read on it on the net said it was one of the best. And so I finally seemed to get it working and I was thrilled. But as I played with it more I realized I had been lied to.

Now the sign in this story is I do photography. But the camera I use now doesn't have focus. So it takes close ups blurry and it doesn't have quick anything. And because I shake it blurs a good half of my pictures. So some would say to traipse around with a tripod. But I desire to have a small camera for my morning walks and that is the problem. The Nikon was a failure and so I pray.

I pray for various reasons but right now I am asking God to help. I am asking why everything in my life seems to be going from bad to worse. I get a moment of encouragement and then again I'm hit. It is like this morning I was asked if I had a license to deal with real estate. Only they went after the one question I didn't think was going to happen even though I had brought it up with God nearly ten years ago. Do you have a license to sell in the USA and can you verify it. First not many do unless they are part of a network of Real Estate people. But the part that saddened me is that I do it for free. I ask for donations but only one person has ever sent cash and it was small, under fifty. And so I live with prayer for I put in several thousand dollars a year. I work on it in some way almost daily.

Yet if it is to be God who guides me into things why then do I not get blessed? Why do my parents suffer? Why is it they have people who use them and me? People who take without asking and just live their lives like the devil?

It is all that I can do to keep in prayer. And yet these thoughts come that God can't help. That he is weak. That he is sitting down somewhere in pain. That he is lousy at correspondence. And in my right mind I know these are all lies. And I know God is there. But what do I do when the mirror sees me as huge? What do I do when I put on weight so great all I can do is struggle up and down the stairs? I go for walks as often as I can. Each morning for sure. I love walking. But I have a penalty in that because of a pinched or bruised bone. So sometimes I walk and it faints on me.

And it just isn't me. The world passes by. The world lives as if wealth is worth nothing. The world uses up wealth and lives as if life is cheap. And so I fight this with all my heart. I give with all my being. And I search with all my thoughts for the God who loves and sends signs.

For if God is coming home soon then what do I as a Christian do? I can't speak. I've mentioned dysphonia before as being a hindering spiritual war. I fight it also in prayer. Yet of all things God is reminding me that He never left. He never forsakes. He never stops sending signs. He has promised to meet my needs. And He has promised to open a way. It might be the final day and it almost is but if so then God is responsible for making it happen. He is God and He is not too small. And God knows I like it when He talks and I don't have to apologize. Its just that I'm sick of those who think small.

Now God is going to heal me. He is going to free me. He is going to encourage me. And in that order. It just means for now I have to bear it. I have to bear the stern and the bow. But if the toe can feel pin and pain then it is the storm of Dean which wrote another sign for me.

As it turns out the All Seeing Eye is the lamp of God. It is the one thing God made from a woman. That is a woman He loved for her measure of love. She was a woman who had no one to care for. She was given a promise but it never seemed to come true. That she would be free and set free of the curse.

Now God created us to live. And He created us to be free. But Dean was a challenge for it was dealing with men. It was sent to the Yucatan peninsula where it carried a seed from Brazil. It was bent in shape but it arrived intact. It was there in Brazil God carried a seed shaped like a heart and broke it open upon the storm. It was the curse. It was shaped like a heart and it had written on it two images. Both were cats and one had its head in the heart shape. That was significant for various reasons but this is how I read it. That God was giving me part of the heart story. That I was in the story for good. And that God was carrying me to Nada which also was written in the image of Dean.

Now this might sound far fetched but one day it will make sense to you. It is a ship which broke out the heart from Brazil and the ship which crafted a storm. It was labeled Dean but it is significant because at one time there was a heart of ten. The heart of ten was called the chieftain but it was pronounced Chief Ten. Now if you study the name Dean it comes down to the word Chief of Ten. And so it was this name which was granted to me by God. And it was this council that God is going to make true.

Now that was recently that I saw this and it was part of what I predicted that it would hit Mexico. It did. It also was my prediction LA would get hit so I guess we'll see if this is true also.

Now the point of this story is that God is in control. He doesn't faint and doesn't give in. He brings to pass all that He can and does all that he can. He passes judgment on those who do not wish His love or guidance. And we as believers cast doubt on things all the time. Often because we don't bother to pray. We just assume it must be off because its so weird.

The fact is the world is stranger then we know. It is based on time and time carried here the bizarre things from out there. So if we find them one day don't be surprised.

I guess I need to close. Some people I haven't seen in years are on the way over. Close people I love. So keep in tune and we'll say which way the wind blows.