How Can I be blessed when disease is striking me down

July 26, 2007

Joel Akin

 I am suffering daily with Dystonia. It is one of many things wrong with this body. I shake hard and it prevents me from talking, standing in one place more then a few seconds and sitting. I can't sit up straight and I have to lean back in a chair. If I try to lean forward I can handle that for a minute before I succumb to the disorder. I have prayed consistently but as I have found God doesn't fasten order to order. He carries an order to Heaven and then He waits for it to be filled and if it can't then the order sits.

For example God set up an order long ago to be filled. It was a special dispensation and it was meant to be sent. Unfortunately it wasn't. Not because I failed but because there were no people able to carry; what shall we say, the order.

Now that might sound foolish. After all there are people healed of disease all the time. Yet what if each of them was given one order and that was all that was allotted. Now imagine I was blessed because I have had more then one order filled. In fact I had more then one because I was hit more then once. I was filled again and again because I was hit by sickness and disease most of my life. So each time I got an order there were those who carried me. But after awhile people get tired. They wear out. They don't have strength. And so the people around me who pray are those who pray for themselves. They are not selfish its just that after awhile the great gift of heaven opens up and says "Listen. We are here. We are waiting to send down anything. Just give us a call." And zip, it seems as if no one is answering on earth.

So if God had a special order then what was it? Now if I say an egg that wouldn't make any sense. After all you can order an egg from heaven anytime and then go to the store and buy one. But imagine this that God saw that I would think the answer is an egg so he would say "No, a special order is given specific name and date. And if it can't be filled it goes to another."

And so someone else would receive my order. That is because God doesn't waste orders.

Who then would get it? Lets say my family did. Lets say I knew I couldn't use it so I sent it to my family. They got blessed. And so I got nada or nothing but trouble.

Now would that make sense? Would it make sense that Sin set up my family to get nothing but trouble so I said "I'll take the heat?" After all I knew I could handle it. The fact is I did and I do but its not fun. I'm hit day after day after day after day and it isn't ending. But it is but not in a way I can really explain.

So what then do I do when my health nears what I call end of the line endurance? The answer is I pray. Now if that seems simple it is. It means each day I pray. And when I finish I write. And when I finish writing I try to relax. And if in the relaxing I find time to pray again then I do. If I find time to write then I do. But the fact is I hurt all over. I go for massage therapy at a local school and they work me over once a week. Dystonia is muscle locking and it isn't something you want to deal with. It has proved me inside more then once. I fight it day after day with everything I can. I've been to the doctors and specialists and taken medicine and gotten injections. I've seen naturalists and body cure specialists. I've tried vitamins and herbs and noctions and tinctures. I've done all I can to help myself. And if there is an answer the doctors haven't got it. Nor does man and his help from nature. There is only one cure and that is the blood of Christ.

 The issue isn't that I'm not in good hands its that I'm in war footing. And so God did something at the concept of this story and He wrote me a bond. Now most bonds don't have a name but yesterday I sought out an answer to hope. I came across a place near the Antarctic called Candlemas island. It was there were I found a term for wild cat and as it was wild cat which attacked me in a dream I have this though "Maybe that signifies hope or Hope." After all I specifically said to "God, help me find Hope." Its a long story but Hope in a dream represented a cat. But the cat represented the line of lions. And of that it represents the cat of Hope for the church. Ask God about it. He'll teach you how it fits into scripture.

 Anyway I was praying about it and I looked at a neighboring island and ironically it was called Vindication Island. I thought that it must have meaning. It did. And from it came a word that God showed me called issu. From issu I found a rare phrase and it was called Fungible Bond.

 Now I'm not an expert but it apparently is a rare term found less then 700 times on the internet. From what I read it is a bond which is carried forward. For example if God had a previous kingdom destroyed by sin then it would be carried forward to the next kingdom God raised up. It would be a long term bond which wouldn't carry maturity until the end of sin. And so once the bond of sin was broken then the bond of God came to maturity. And so that would be a fungible bond. At least in the extent I show it.

Now fungible bonds exist. Microsoft has them and some other major corporations do. They are based on maturing a bond. And they are based on giving things to others when no one else can. So if a minor company goes bankrupt no one can help those who lose out. But when a major company goes out of business they have financial banks which hold mature bonds which are then carried into the next lease. And those bonds are incorporated or carryable into the next line. Now carryable isn't a word by carry-able is. And so carry-able is the word we look for.

 Now when God gives my order to another, such as with my family, they get it. That is a bond. It isn't worth as much perhaps as if they held on to it but if they pray and seek they are granted a bond. And if God can't give that bond to that person He says "I owe you" and he doesn't mouth it but writes it. And if that grace of moment is lost then God carries it to the next grace of moment.

So lets say that I have wealth. It isn't here on earth but being a suffering individual I have time to cry and weep and beg God for help. Now if God gave my order to someone like my family they would have to wear it. That is my mantle. Now if that mantle is something they want they would pray. If they don't then the mantle returns to the sender and that is either God or Jesus or the Holy Spirit.

Now if there is a war going on God would keep that mantle on my family but let me suffer. It wouldn't make sense to take off that mantle they wear and cover me because it would have shrunk if they didn't pray. Now if they let the mantle shrink and it becomes hard to hold onto then eventually it would cover only one shoulder. And if that covers me then it isn't of value. For God would grant me a new mantle.

But if that old mantle holds the covering of prayer then whoever ends up with it will need it. For they would be bombarded with elements called receptacles of time. That is spirits who return from pain and suffering looking for the one who bent the well. That is someone who took the abyss and covered it with prayer.

Now that might not make sense but lets say it was turned over to my family. But none of them wanted to pray. So it would go to the head of the house. And if that was a man it would hit him in the head. If it was a woman they would get hit in the head also. So whoever owns the mantle would be hit as hard as I was hit. And trust me that is like getting hit with a hammer every second. So it isn't something most of us can deal with.

Now the point is that we bear a mantle that is new. This is based on a new bond I had to pray into place. It wasn't easy and still isn't. It is like starting over from childhood. And all the problems we face in life would hit you in a matter of a few years instead of decades. And that is like getting hit with a hammer once a week instead of incessantly but it still hurts. And still does.

So if this is a mystery it is because I know whoever holds the mantle would mature or grow. If they don't the fungible bond becomes fungus. And that means it would destroy the mind of the bond. And that isn't a good thing. So whoever ends up with a mantle that was given to them it had better be prayed for. I don't joke because God is showing me that whoever has it got it by fake note. And that means they didn't take it by truth but by things best not described. And so the description of mantle at that time was fun bond and it did not have the GI signature it normally had. And that is because God kicked the GI out of the house. And the GI is the guy who was in the house.

So here is the truth to this; the day of God is one where he provides each of us with chance or choice. If we chose chance we chose things that come to us. If we provide ourselves with choice we then take on what isn't ours. And so the day of God is one where we have to be in the well. It is then when the storm comes over. And so we take off the mantle and that is the house. The house is the Heavens which surround each of us.

Yet there are times when God provided a place in the depth of the earth where He and the people of Heaven could hide. It was there to provide them with wealth and need but it wasn't pleasure. It was in the nature of Paradise that God provided the way of deliverance. And it was there where they had to hide from Pel who was the Peleg or Pell Egg of time. Think of why did Jesus have to deliver those in Paradise? To be frank they did this to protect the people. The people were those of God and God carried the people. He didn't forsake them He carried them to the well. And so the abyss was the gap between Heaven and Earth. And when Pel Eg hit it hit Heaven and those in Paradise were protected from Sin monster Pel or as I call him the A Pel. He was the one who took Alpha and cast him down on the cross and took Christ as sin in nature. We took Jesus as our savior but Jesus had to bear a price which none of us can bear. Even though I suffer I suffer for a reason that has nothing to do with Jesus and the cross. I suffer because someone came and took my mantle by force. They did so because I was told not to fight back. I didn't. I lay down and hid. And when I got hit by those who came looking they saw I was wide open and they hit me with the sledge hammer blow to the head. I could have died but God protected me.

Now this is all true and someday God will prove it. But you want to know about money.

So I'll speak to you about the bond. The bond is of prayer. It is really called Fungible bond. Look it up on the Net. You'll find it does exist. It is called that for one major reason; we all are fungi and that isn't a joke. You see Sin was a spiritual man who built a still. He carted it to men everywhere. He took them down into hell and gave them brew and bruise. In other words he'd get them drunk and then he robbed them. He was the connoisseur or common sewer. He lifted the veil on God and saw God in his narrow way and lifted it to men so they could mock God. And God saw this and was not just angry but vengeful. And so the name of the game became one of longevity.

God saw sin was dumb but Sin spirit man was smart. So He built a trap which he never saw until it was too late. And that was basically putting us into the picture. Each of us will be given a service bond but not a fungible bond. That is given only to those who pray until they overcome. And that didn't happen in this age. At least it didn't until I overcame. However they threw out my mantle as no one in the house wanted it. And that meant I had to carry up a new one. And it was small and little and unserviceable. And so I've had to pray and God indicates it has grown so big it is bigger then it was. And that is good news. However it also proved to be the storm that was like no storm ever. For it revealed a flaw in the single man who was me. I was fought over and over and over until I was brand new. I couldn't remember my own name.

So anyway that is another story for another day. I will just say that I have a life coming to me. I have hope and Hope. I have a dream which is meant to be fulfilled. It is where me and my brother go to a day of garage sales once a month. It is a day when me and my brother can go fishing and laugh while we clean them. It is a day when I can actually fish with my dad and mom. And where we can pick up stones and enjoy them. And if I get in trouble its a day when my sister collects things so I can find her something at the garage sale or store.

Now this may seem foolish but remember this; God doesn't give up. He doesn't carry down pain. He doesn't carry me to misery. He carries me to hope. And so if that is of God then give. For remember this that in the day of misery God said I will grant you an answer.

So if there is a day it is to come.

Now I don't have it yet but it will come. And the day of Sin will come to an end and all will be revealed. Until then remember to leave a jet at the airport with a stewardess and massage instructions. Of course if we fly to Tahiti I wish to be near a coconut tree and someone to open it up so I can have some of it every day or so.

Anything else? How about a trip around the world on a cruise line unlike other lines? Like on Heaven cruise lines with a thousand angels at your beck and call. And that is a dream I suppose you'll think I'm losing it for but give me time and I'll think about it. Not the losing of the mind but a way to recover what I've had to pay. In other words just have fun. Love life and give God His due. Pray.