The Story that would not

July 7, 2007

Joel Akin

 Well, I found my readership doubled last month. I reached nearly ten thousand people for the month. Some might be coming for Ozone Hole but some seem to arrive by chance. Either way I welcome you to my site. I have been following the way for a long time. Now some might say that I am following a religion but I speak mystery. For the way is the way but not of men or of religious belief or of man or of things but of those we call love.

Now the love we follow is the way of John and Peter and Jesus who was the way. I say 'the way' because there are people who call their churches that and some might go off and so we cast off the phrase and we end up losing sight because of why we cast off.

You see when people first followed Christ they were weird. Most of them had just been filled with tongue of fire. There was one for each of them and a tongue is a language. It is the ability to speak with tongue of fire. And tongue of fire is what God brings to those who pray. It it a gift to those who have it and it is a gift to those who seek. In fact it is the gift which God wants us to have.

I won't argue because I speak with God and God wants you to know that I am His Spokesman. Not a little one but a big one. And that Spokesman is one who has fought for life. I fight and continue to do so. I won't stop until God says to and then I probably won't.

Now I struggle with the word occult. I know we use it in science and it means to stem the flow of light. It is used in a good sense when science uses it but we don't always know why we curse it as Christian. I say that because when we curse 'the way' and say they are occult or occultic in nature we are saying "They stem the light" but we say that because we heard it. And so we pass on knowledge and we pass it to each other and we become blind to what the way is.

Now I don't care about the name of a group but I do care when someone uses that name "The Way" and puts it on a book or on a door and tells me they are the only way. I know then they are occult because that then becomes the lie. For when men say to you they are the way or the truth or the light then they are occult. Now when they add Jesus is the way then they are truth. And if they add but you can find truth with our help then it becomes synergy.

Now the important thing about syn is that it is not sin. Syn is the so of la. The so of la is something God taught and it is when a man finds the way. He goes to God and says "Is it possible to learn something from you that was never found in scripture?"

Now to ask that makes you think I am occult in nature. That is because we forget that less then 2,000 years ago there were men like you and like me who went and sought for a relationship with God. They went out and put their life on the line and found God. And they went and sought him so deep they went into things that were not found in the Old Testament. What they write became part of the Bible and they were carried forward to us as true men of God. We put them down as disciple or apostle and they were men who were called men. And men who were men were those who were the life of the party. They gave what they got and they gave it with clear conscience.

So when you ask the creator of the universe that question then you had been expect an answer. And so God taught me things I did not find in scripture. In fact He sent me on a choice mission to find knowledge. And I was sent in faith to pray and when you pray in Gods perfect will you find what men of old missed. And if that bothers you then don't read. Someday you will see me standing with God and He won't be ashamed of me. But some people are and they don't like word or words. And if that is you then I am not ashamed but I am afraid that I will not stop praying until you believe. That is why I say afraid because it is the fear that men will last only so long. We were never meant to live on Gods word if we could not believe in Gods truth. And that is the way and the truth and the life. No man comes to the father but through me. And that is the word of Jesus to men. So we then took one scripture and we played it out to mean it was a sacred word and thus we only needed the scripture to come boldly before God.

 Well, if you believe you can stand and quote scripture and don't have a clue of the way then you had better find a better hobby. That is because knowing the word of God was the hobby of my friend Bob. He died but not before I had a chance to witness to him as the strongest athiest I knew. He was so atheistic he loved reading scripture to counter arguments with the lady across the street. She loved parading knowledge and arguing her point but she refused to befriend him. And that is the point I make. That I loved Bob and his wife and I sought for fellowship with them. I didn't push my faith but I did try to live it. And when time came for them to ask for help they called me. And I do weep because I did not know how to help them as I should have. He died and his wife went to a nursing home. And I tried to visit but I didn't and she died a year or so later. And it was my heart for them because of the fact that sin robbed him of his understanding. We talked and he shared the hurts of his house. And it was his father that set Bob on the course towards atheism because of the way people had treated him. I won't say they were Christian but if they were then why do you need to ask why I befriended a man who loved to argue but could not argue with love?

And the point is that I loved him and he and his wife cared for me. They offered to sell me land so I could buy a home and it was like ten cents on the dollar. And I could have and maybe should have but again I didn't. It isn't that I care for men or women less it is just that I saw responsibility was something I wasn't able to bear. I was growing weak and I didn't know I had multiple diseases waiting in the wing. And I have them now but that is probably why I fight with words. It is because the church as a whole does not generally accept that someone who is ill can be Gods Spokesman. And I say that knowing I am meant to write it with a big S. It is the Spoke of the wheel and that is why my father is called wheel. He was the wagon of the tongue and that is meant in a good sense. The tongue was the tongue of the wagon and it was part of the flange which supported the weight for those who road upon the wheel. And it was part of the spring and part of the so of la.

The so of la is the so of t and the so of r and t. And so the sor I bear is the sore of knowing how to speak. And yet I still cry tears for pain and memories of those who died without knowing how their heart was. I found I could love and I could share and he told me that I was the first person he met in all his life that he would call a real Christian. I say it was an honor to have him as a friend. I know that I didn't argue I loved. And I say that again. I say it because as Christian and as those we call cult they are those who argue the point.

 We don't really understand point of things because everything is sharp to the tongue and it is the pull of the heart and the love. And if you drive a nail into the pal then you drive a nail into the so of la. And that is the so of the belly and the belly is the button.

Now I play with word of grace and it is grace. I say it with love because I have met Grace. It is the so of la and it is women which God has. He doesn't introduce them to everyone., He saves them from most because most men speak vile of women. And women have a rep they say of being vile. And so everywhere there were men they spoke vile of men or of women and that isn't the will of God.

God desired that women be saw as important as men. They were not treated that way and Jesus tried to show their name but they were not given equal status. They were cast off and they were not given credit. Their work and their writing never made it into the scripture. Not because they were less righteous but because men were the scribe. And so women were cared for and watched over but they were the show or the li of the heart. The li was the li of beginning things. They were also the lee in the so of la or the sou which speaks of things soothing to the soul.

Women are the so of la and the heart of el or l and el is lord and El is God. So if El Shaddai became the God that provides or the shadow of the day then God carried a shadow to women who labored under the heat of the sun. And they bore the pain of time and of men who had no desire to share. Women were those who were the wise ones and they gave men time of joy and head pain because they were so mysterious. That is because women were great and gracious. And those two are the so of la.

Now the so of la is the heart of grace. I write it as a so and a la that God created men to join with women in the so. The so was the place where men gathered up what time had carried. They were give a so and a la. The la was the so of their heart to their so and the la was the heart which was knit or knot. And if it was knitted then it was lost in time and the same for knotted. How can you tell? Look for Ted. Ted means that he is the so of t and that is the sot or the man who boozes his life into the grave. The sot was the so of la with t only la was the heart of drink. Men who were boozers had no so in their button and that meant their belly button. It was called that by God so it could be a heart of le or lee that would join men. If it was missing then God had to find a way of flying them to Heaven so they could be carried out of hell. Most people who saw God as hateful had to be carried up by hand. That is because everyone had to be judged and some would not stir from the grave if God called. Not because they didn't recognize the so of la but because they hated who God was.

Now God isn't afraid of men. He isn't afraid of what they say. He isn't afraid of anger nor reproof. He can bear it better then anyone and he knows everyone has anger towards Him. And so when they come up for a conversation God tells them He is not angry with them. That usually shocks some but others think it a trick. And so they think God has to be angry. Especially since most people in church say its so. In fact what makes a child a man? Most men who hate God never grow out of their youth. For Bob he was stuck in time as a child. He remember poems and stories and heart rending tales that carried him in ways that awoke things. Those stories he wrote were often in poem and they were so beautiful that they came from the so of la. No other way could they be so prophetic. That is what happens to those who grow up outside but inside they are filled with pain. And that isn't the wolf we speak of but the man of poem and poetry. A man who sang and wrote country music. A man who wrote a book of beautiful poems of the prairies and the wonder of the mountains and twisting tales of memories. They were so wonderful that when I found a second copy of his book I purchased it. I saw it as a sign from God. I dreamed of him and in it there was no one home. So God carried up his soul as a child. He was carrying his brother and they were terrified. I saw it as a passenger and I didn't understand. How could their be two little boys and yet the body of the man was there without a belly button? I know God speaks in mystery but this was odd. So it was the so of la or the sew of the la and la is the soul or the heart depending on who is in control.

So when God fights sin Jesus comes and knits us into the unity of the body and that is part of the heart. But what about those we reach but can't seem to get them to change? We pray and ask God for their heart because we loved them and God takes that love and puts it into the heart. That love then becomes a so of la. A heart love which binds the so of the heart. Now that is the child who survives. There is part of the man who lives and bears the price of sin in hell but there is part of the so and the la which makes it to heaven. And if that bothers you then you should ask "Why did Jesus die for us?"

If you say "To have life" then when does that life begin? I've prayed for years to be healed and haven't as yet. Does that mean I have less right to life then someone who is healthy all their years? Do I who pray and they who don't get wealth in Heaven and suffering on earth? Maybe some things written in scripture imply it but other scriptures say the opposite. And so as a born again, Spirit filled Christian I beg God nearly daily for healing. God hears and wants to answer. So why doesn't He? That is because of evil who wants to be like evil. That means there is intelligence behind true evil. Now that is a sort and that means I write it with knowledge. That is because despite what most think God did create evil. Evil was made to digest food. It is basically bacteria. Not e-coli which is made by man but bacteria friendly to the gut or to the body. And so the things of evil were good in the beginning but men got involved and manipulated the evil until it became a war of weapon against men. And that was the first bio-war. It crept into the Garden and the Garden of Eden was made poor because of men.

So don't share that it isn't possible. I know it is. I have the story in full its just that you have pre-judgment on your mind. You have a concept of hell and it is that God wants all non-believers to go there. After all if God is in charge of things does he or doesn't he? If he does send men to hell he is unjust. If he doesn't send men to hell he is just unjust. And if he sends all men to hell he is justified by faith. For if we are in hell then this is the hell of the soul. And we are in hell of the soul because none of us was right with God. None of us wanted to be right. So all of us were cast into hell with Adam and with Eve and they became part of hell on earth. We kept waiting for the flame of fire but it was the so of t or the sot where men of booze went. There the booze lit up the fire and burned down the heart. For the heart when filled with sot was so full of flame that it carried men to flame of fire. They had to lose that spirit. And that spirit was flame of sin. Sin was a spirit who was sot and he was drunk and he carried us to the pel. And pel was sin pel or his spel. The spel he put us under spelt disaster to us. We became the time of death and sin led us down the garden path. That was the spel led and that isn't a joke. That is how God wrote the English language so you can tell the story of Creation with word play. I do it all the time and it works every single time. And it is because God showed me the true nature of ru and le. And that was the ru of the le or ru of the ler. And the ler I struggled with until I remember that it was lur for lure or lur id. Id is what Freud called it and he was the sort of man who liked the maze of the rat. It took the id of i and ought to make me see that Freud had one thing right; that was the rat. The rat was the so of t and the t of la or t of se. And that became sort of time and sea.

So if you want me to keep going I can but I want to end this for now. Remember that God made man to be loved. When we were carried to se we were carried to see and that is the way of Paul when he looked into death. He saw through a glass but darkly. And that is the so of the t and the le and the se. And so the la of man was the so of t and la and o pe and n. And they are all legitimate ways of seeing. If you read my material you will know this is the way I write. I do it because eventually men will break the curse of word and allow Jesus to be the lo and the hi of their heart. And so if you can remember that Jesus came that we might have a way. That is to life. Life was the so of l and the t of u. And so the t of u is ewe and that was a song by Dolly who carried the clone. She was the so of ti and la and do. And so was the clone who carried a ewe to us from the world of men. They didn't know Dolly was us. We were all clones only they had perfected us in those days so we could produce offspring. And we did but our children carried the clone curse. That is we were not able to sustain life longer then 100 years or so. And that is the maximum time allotted us. Even ted couldn't stop us from maturing. And so we went out and sod or sewed our way out of the grass by prayer. And that is the key to flesh for flesh was meant to be of life. It was possible for us to grow in maturity but we all died. That is until God heals us. And so I pray I beat the sod so I don't get laid to rest. I don't wish to rest at least until I am free. And once I am free I will be able to say "I saw a great light." And it will be a light of truth and love and joy. And that is the promise of love and of hope.