March 6, 2007

Joel Akin

The Fire which sweeps the world

 IN a dream I had I saw a great fire sweeping across the world. I saw sheep and there was no one to save them. I tried and God called me a fireman. One who was called to help save the sheep from the conflagration. And that was the fire sweeping the world.

 What if there were two interpretations to that dream. What if God saw it as a battle between evil and a battle between good. The battle was meant to go with evil because no one understood the battle was the Lords. And the Lord was not God but Satan who was Lord of the earth. Now that bothers some but remember that God is not the author of evil. The Bible is clear that God wants everything that is good and pure and holy and just to be with us. And that sounds an awful lot like he who is God. Not he who is Satan.

 So Satan is the lord of this world. He is the evil who strives to overcome God. He is the deceiver who wants us to fail to heed. He is the liar who wants attention to himself.

 In many ways this battle is meant to be of the Lord God. But Sin arrived at the nick of time and gave Satan his power. Only Satan had to become little lord. And Sin became evil. And that was the big lord of evil. And thus he became the master of earth even though God planned on restoring all things.

 Now some don't understand why Jesus came or why God doesn't act. The answer is Jesus came to pray. And he came to overcome sin and evil. He did and he overcame all these things in all forms. They fell to him. He left us in charge. Why not take things then? Because he had to die and after that there was meant to be men who took up the slack. They did and for a long time they held authority over evil. Until the 1500's when things slid into the pit of hell. That was when there was a disaster that was averted but it required evil to rise out of the pit. And that was part of the answer we need. That it came about as a result of sin giving up one part of time in order to have the latter part. And that was our age.

 Sin wanted the latter part figuring it was the last days and it would be interesting. It was and it is.

 The part which was necessary to overcome then was an evil on earth called emperor. It was an evil being who existed and was overcome. It was his time to die and that was a being who had died and was overcome with nature. That was part of a story called the tree and it will be one I write more of in the future.

 Now the time of this end meant that man had to fight for supremacy. He did for awhile but it became horrific and men died and died and died in lie and counter ploy until they could no longer raise up men of prayer. And then there was a period of lie and more lie until in the late 1500's men began to seek for a place of safety. That became America. And it was there where God created a place meant to be a refuge from sin.

 Only problem is that Leviathan was there already. He had grown up with knowledge of who Christ was because of early missionaries who had crossed the sea and gone to America. They had become part of our history as early as a hundred years after the birth of Christ. And they were here as part of a call by God to reach the whole world.

 The people who arrived died and no one came after them for more then a thousand years with the message of Christ. By then it had become nothing, not even rumor or myth. No one knew that America had a seed of faith lying in the ground. No one knew where it had gone. It will be made apparent in the future.

 The real problem to this story is that God wanted me to pray. They did but not with understanding. They had to pray and seek and pray and seek until it grew hard to obtain anything new. And then they had to dig in other sources and that wasn't Gods true desire. He saw that most were true but they didn't have knowledge of how prayer should be. That meant the enemy had sowed seed of destruction in the whole world.

 So in my time my family became prayer warriors. My Great Uncle and his family all went into seasoned prayer. Generation after generation until it reached me. I was the least seasoned in prayer and didn't like it. I had tried it along with praying in tongues for 3 solid months without any thing but a trip to the hospital. I thought I had failed to reach God. I didn't know I was on the verge of a breakthrough.

 I gave up on prayer and went into other things. Deep searching of scripture. I found neat things and found neat ideas for sermons. I listened to God when I could and got answers but I didn't seem to be able to keep it going. I ran out of fuel every single time.

 And so the prayer life fell by the wayside and I didn't know who or what I was. Some prophets saw an exciting future for me. I saw nothing. I failed to overcome in anything. I saw myself as the worst failure of all.

 And so time went on and I gave up when door after door closed. My health problems began to escalate until a fateful day in 1997 when I lifted a heavy weight which creaked or cracked something. I ended up losing abilities one after another. No one saw anything on any scan. I didn't know if it was spiritual or physical only I started shaking. I figured that was spiritual. And it was but it became physical. And it got worse until I was spasm on heels. I became so bad in shakes I could not eat without someone noticing. I gradually turned away from people and gradually began to eat alone. I didn't mind figuring that I was in Gods plan. And I was only it wasn't Gods perfect will. Just that I sought it with my heart but not all.

 And so years passed and I grew worse until another fateful day. I should say I had more then one and so did my mother and father. We all ended up in the ambulance many times. It grew tiresome.

 And so I ended up back in the hospital with blinking eyes and slurred speech. Doctors said it wasn't a stroke but I ended up semi comatose in bed within two weeks. I lost my ability to speak and lost the ability to communicate and lost the ability to act. I lay there and it wasn't just communication that was the issue. It was head pain which grew and grew and grew and didn't stop.

 And it was in this time of trouble when I could not do anything but scream in my head when I heard God speak that he was there. And I was able to stop screaming though the pain continued to escalate. I went into prayer and learned and grew and gained short times when I could speak to my parents in whispers. And I shared the glory of things I was learning. And it grew until I had overcome. Not in all things but in 90% of things and it was then when evil rose up and destroyed me in a way I cannot describe. The equivalent of a nuke hitting me. It destroyed me mentally and if it had not been for God I would probably be dead or in the hospital. And I would not be here.

 God saw me and picked me up and began to help me find the reason this was happening. And it was during these days I learned that mankind was under bondage to sin. And it was so bad the entire world was lost and no one but me knew the true way out.

 That was what I thought but it wasn't true. In reality I was in trouble over my head. I was in a pit called life and there was no way out but God. And God saw I didn't like evil and helped me overcome but it wasn't until yesterday God showed me coming out of the pit. And that pit was my life.

 Now all of us have pits which we call life but this was different in some ways. It meant that I had to fight for life and had to fight for knowledge. And I did and I learned that the root of evil is part of ancient knowledge. And that ancient knowledge was based on truth but the truth was not in evil. They only used truth to confuse men.

 And so I had to fight for truth and that was based on helping and I did.

 Now I am on the way up where God is about to deliver me from sickness. It will take time and it will take help from people who have been called to help. It will be time based on help of life. And that again is in Gods hand.

 So I am on the way to a new life. And that life is based on help of God.