Everything is Okay

May 11, 2007

Joel Akin

 Where do you begin when you have nothing to say? Perhaps we could begin with life is good and I am fine. Now lets say I wanted to speak and God was part of my desire so that I might share with you a thought. Not a thought of pain or suffering but a thought of hope. For in hope there was life and in life there was joy even if the joy seemed far away.

 Lets say it began with a quest for a book I wrote. Everyone in the family is searching for their copy and I can't find mine. And so I think its here in the basement or in the garage but it isn't found. So I ask for help in moving boxes to find the copy for a friend who prays and knows the family history. And I want to find it so I can have them read it.

Now finding something that is lost isn't easy to explain if you have an idea where it is. But suppose you can't do it all by yourself. Imagine you have to have help and that means someone to aid you. Now if that sounds normal remember I'm sharing something God wants you to see. That being with God is like being with a good friend and yet I am severely disabled. And so finding that box isn't easy because I have severe head and body problems. As in tremors and headaches that get worse if I am active.

 Now I'm not here to talk about that but to point out that when you are on the side of right God has a way of getting a point across. And one way is to find a way where there is no way. And that means to be in Tov. Now the Jews have a saying which means it will be good or all right and that is Mazel Tov. It is a good phrase and it helped me tonight when the enemy seemed to surround me with pain and sorrow. And I was trying to find something to write on. For I want to be right with God and God found a way by saying Tov. And it was an unusual way but it worked and I heard it and it came to mean its all right. And being all right is good.

Now if you are in Gods care and God say that you have to answer to success and winning you would sit and wonder "I do?" and of course you would reply the answer was prayer.

And knowing the answer is prayer is key to overcoming concern on things.

Now here is the irony of life. A couple years ago I was struggling seriously with health and emotional difficulties. I came to a place where I pretty much stopped sleeping and that sent me to a place we'll call spiritual hell and the grave. And it was then when I was turned over to the law for a time. I didn't like it but it helped me for I saw that the law cared by helping to keep me in line. And that is part of the nature of things which are yet to come.

The biggest difficulty I face is problem of space. I was okay but mom had her desire for me to have her bed because she had gotten a nicer one. Mine was old and hers was newer. And when we brought it down it proved to be too wide for my room. I wouldn't have enough space for everything and that would mean either moving me or my computer out. And I had spent a fortune getting my room wired for all the inputs I wanted. I was concerned about power and it is that reason which helped me decide to keep my bed.

The problem isn't my bed or moms bed but space. And I had gotten a word which stated that God was going to open a way for me to have a place of my own. The problem turned out to be one of time. God wanted me to see that time was the problem. And if I wanted a solution I would spend time writing about it. The problem is I couldn't really hear and thus time because part of the problem of space.

And if space and time were problems to my life you had better believe God needed to find a way of dealing with dark matter. For it was the lie of sin and the length of time. And that meant there were things in dark matter which had to be carried through the quasars and into the next realm. But the problem was there wasn't enough quasars in the universe that were not destroyed.

So God made a place on earth where the quasars could function by carrying all the dark matter down to the one quasar which was Entropy. Of course she got really tired from sitting around pushing buttons and got cranky with me because I refused to see. She didn't know that I had to tell the story of all the things which had happened to the dark matter so it could be fixed in Entropy and her kitchen. It seems she was cooking up various ideas on how to deal with dark matter and the soup de jour was the pain we had to deal with in our realm.

Now you can't blame Entropy for the pain we dealt with. She was struggling as love child to deal with love matter. And love matter was the heart of the father to deal with white pain. And white doesn't refer to anything but the white noise created by white hot lava. For lava was of the va and that was of the movement of la. And so la and va had to move the pain to the lee side of the harbor and that wasn't easy to move since the la had only one hand to work with. As in men didn't want to help move things around.

So here was the problem I faced. God was struggling to move la while the va or move of the va, which was of hot la or lava went askew. And that meant it became hurt by me because I told Entropy she was cooking up ideas. Actually that is a good thing because she is the smartest cookie in the tray. And since I like Chocolate Chip it mattered only that they didn't burn.

So here is the thing that I wanted Entropy to see. That I was doing what I was being asked to do. I was helping to move things with ideas. And she was the only one with access to the La Port of Q Continuum. Continuum, you will remember, was part of the Q network on Star Trek the next generation. And since God liked the show he showed us that he could make a continuum of the Q by using the Q as the generator of garbage. And thus there was a great Q in the working and that was Entropy. And she was the only one working at present so the kitchen was getting white hot with activity. And so the Q stream had to take the lava into the flow of the heart and remake it into something pretty and new.

So Entropy was doing her best and she was Entropy and she was Q and she was smarter then most humans. Specially me because otherwise she would box my ears for awhile and that would ring trouble.

Now while the woman works as she should in the kitchen let me state that I was feeling a mite edgy because I was trying to help God clear out the garbage from history. And since God is history in the making I had to find out what his story was. And since that included things like the end of time and death and all that I was part of it and I was into it and I had to carry time and death and sin and an evil monster we'll call Smon. He was part of the ancient dragon network called Seeper.

Now you might laugh but it goes back to the world we'll call City which was set on a hill. It is a real and if you try to speak against me God is at the beginning to make sure I prove right in what I say. So if you laugh study history and you'll see I am right on the button. And words are made to be fun so one is Seeper. It is a secret code word that we get that no one paid attention to. It leads to a cipher written in ancient law and it is part of a secret word which refers to copper scroll. Or treasure map. For the Copper Scroll isn't the one found with the Dead Sea scrolls. It is one found in the language of the la. And that is the truth. For if I share that it is the name of things related to rust and time and things that were of the red you would laugh. But again you forget I have the Holy Spirit to guide me in this story. And so if you read it remember that God is part of things at the beginning and the end of time. And if I get to play a roll you can bet it isn't going to be dough by the time it is baked up.

So how then do I obtain bread dough? The answer is by playing a trifle with you. If you send me a word of three letters I can tell you what it means by searching the etymology of it. Send me $25 to fossilman@hotmail.com via Paypal and I'll write you a descriptive concept of what it means from history. And that will be the way you get to be part of this story. Just make sure it is with consonant and vowel so its not something like DDT. I don't wish to carry the noise of Entropy trying to digest that cookie. For Entropy is part of la and la is part of na and na is part of the va. And va is of the woman and her heart or the vacation which man never allowed her. For she wanted fruit in paradise and got a slick pitch instead. And the man said "I'll try it if you say so dear" and of course he really said "I'm in charge and I'll try some dear." And of course she became the wild deer and he became the wild horse that needed taming.

Anyway it was over for me because I still didn't know how to obtain bread. I knew it was coming and was meant to rise. After all unleavened bread was bread without a raise. And I got a raise of time but not of dough. And that is one that wouldn't be answered by all the dark matter in the universe. I think.