May 18 2007

Joel Akin

The Price for Freedom

Genesis 12:3 And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed.

 In the sight of God there was a man who said "I will be a blessing." He said it to me in faith and said "I will be a blessing" and he was. And he said "I will be a blessing to men and to women and to those who wish to visit me in my world."

For as a friend to God I got to see part of what he had in store for me. For the empty swimming pool wasn't just a pool but an axle holder or the part which goes into an axle of a semi truck.

God gave me a series of mysterious dreams today and I mean mysterious. They were the best parts and the parts God helped me to remember. In dream one I am part of a negotiating team or at least viewing it and there are people who are negotiating over me. It was in a high rise tower and that could be here in Calgary or somewhere in the world. I saw myself next in a convertible with what I thought was a Chinese Mafia and he was waiting for instructions to let me go. And again that was part of the story of life for I was to be released on to the street of a city and everything seemed normal.

In the next dream I was with a friend named Jay who was driving a school bus backward. His father John was providing people to hew a way backward for more then 30 miles to what I thought was a swimming pool. There John stepped onto the bus with my brother and they began to do something that I saw as a connection.

Now all these things were parts of a story and like the father he didn't show me what it meant. It came through revelation throughout the day. Somehow the man in the office tower was someone in a position of power who had authority to hold me. There were those around him who served him and they were waiting for his final decision. I didn't get the impression that it was an easy negotiation but one where he had to release something with it. And there was someone there who was standing for me.

Now this seems to speak to my circumstances for I have been praying for years for a breakthrough. And I don't know what this means except it seems to speak to spiritual matters.

The real question is does it refer to spiritual things for the distant future or does it refer to things in my life now? For if the former then it becomes part of the overall story of life. If it is now then it is something that needs to happen soon.

To understand this we have to go back a little to when I was a child. I had a dream to be a sailor only not with sails of boats but with sales. I would go to a garage sale with a quarter or less and I would have to choose what to buy. It wasn't easy and usually I would look for a toy and those toys were thrown out because I would put them in the dirt. The problem of my life is that mom and dad were poor and I was dirt poor and that was part of my story.

Now dirt poor didn't mean mom didn't care. She and dad were part of a call from God to pastor and pastor meant that I was part of their story. I may not have pastored like they did but I past and I oared. For as a child of the most high God I was one God loved. Not just because I was His child but because I had authority which I never took advantage of. And that authority was where I could have asked for my share of the house.

 Now it might have been in my later years that I asked and it did shock them and I felt bad for bringing it up. But what I didn't know is that sin wanted me to see me as an ill gotten man who had been lessened because of my parents. I didn't see it that way but he tried and tried and tried to cap me into the story with anger and with a longing for wealth. And as usual he came close a few times to making me do things wrong. For I went out and I bought things and I tried to spend money I didn't have and my knowledge of how to survive on little went out the window. I couldn't think and everytime a blessing was offered to me I couldn't see it as a help but a hindrance. And that wasn't God but sin. For Sin himself had a plan to butcher the peace in my family and destroy the wealth of a lifetime. And that came so close to coming to pass that only Gods grace kept it from being so. For I went into sin mind and that meant sin fought me in a way he had never fought anyone personally. Now you must understand Sin was and is a man and was and is a man of power. And he does hold power on earth and earth is considered his leg or source of power for his heart. And that meant he had power on earth so deep it went into the foundation of theosophy. And we'll say that was and is the nature of life.

Now I got mad at life today because as I was writing sin sent life sin to block me with a shell that was glistening and white but it wasn't see through. And it has been the spirit preventing me from writing clearly the things God wanted me to have. And so the thought came I was dishonoring the father because I was casting off life. You must understand I've seen it and accepted it before because I could not think. And not being able to think meant that life was part of the history of things but not the completion of things.

And so the completion of things was something God made apparent for I get caught up into a time of works and tiredness of mind. And so He carefully pulls me back into the fold.

Now I told a story while camping and it is as if I tell it to a vast audience. Some might think it works and it does for a mind filled with thoughts not ones own. And that meant sin sent spirits to hinder me and subject me to things that a sigh ki a trist would say I was playing with my own thoughts as I sought a way to alleviate the pressure of stress due to my physical difficulties. True in a way but not spiritually for there is a war that I was in and it is one I fight still. And it is one God is negotiating over not to get me free by frame or force by making sure I'm left alone after I overcome. For when I overcome and that is a sure thing, God will be there to help me through it. For those who were there know I don't like to hurt so there are people that are on the side of sin who would say "This guy isn't bad he is just dumb." For they wanted to go to hell only I told them it was hell and it was worse then hell and worse then anything they could imagine. They didn't believe so I went there and as a result one empathic responses from some. They went over to God and as a result there are spiritual forces who turned wholesale over to the father. And they were bad people but ones who needed a savior. So I got to play a role in winning some of them and that was one of sins fears that if I were to continue to play a role in fighting they would turn to God wholesale and he would be left with power no one wanted.

So the story is that I grew up in Michigan, went to school, lived a life not fit for a king let alone a Akin, and tried to be happy.

The story could go into how lonely I was and I was lonely but not alone. I had an angel watching over me every minute and it was a real one. And there were those who protected me from harm and only once did they have to manipulate time to save my life. And that was when God said "He'll sink to the bottom with those boots on" and so they saved my life when I started to fall face first into a spring torrent of mud and water. And I found myself sitting on a ledge higher up and that was the only time I knew someone had moved me in time. And so that was a key to knowing that God was in control.

Now I speak to time and of time and I know most see it as fiction. God did say time would be no more and the same for death. So I'll just say I know those things are going to be delivered to the sea of fire.

 Now the other thing is that I was in a war so big God had to call it something and it became the last day battle. Now there will be another war on earth and it will be the last day of the Lord and the last day of sin and that is because big Sin is on the way to the bottom. He is the only one who paid a price for submitting me to his denial page and that was the concept if he fell they would fall. And so the empire of Sin is being delivered to the sea and eventually to the lake and then to the river and then back to the sea for Sin will become part of the cycle of time. And he will be carried there piece by piece as a grain of sand at a time. It is the proverbial saying that if you had a grain of sand work its way down from a mountain to the sea how long would it take. And the answer is 1 day of the Lord. And that works out to over a quarter of a million years I think. So try not to hatch plans to work in with Sin in the future lest you build your foundation on sand. For his work and his future are kaput as of this day of the Lord.

Now sin of men continues and Sin will try to join forces with them to fight with God. And so God set a course for me and that was the lie of life. For in the lie of life is Christ. He had to take the lie of sin and Sin and lay those things at the foot of the cross. And the foot was meant to be bruised. So those things were fulfilled as of today as well. Not in whole but in part.

Now the whole part is yet to arrive and that is the backward driving of the school bus. It was yellow and it probably had its flashers going but it was meant to be a bus of teaching. It was and it taught me to listen for I was in a war all day over my thoughts. Thoughts that if I could pray by running around town I would be happier. Maybe so but I thought "Gas prices are over the sky and I can't spend anymore money." Now I have some I'll spend on sales but that is different then money on just normal things like gas. I had to fill up and that was almost $45 and for my little truck that is a fortune. Almost 1/20 of my monthly income and that is for one tank. And lately it takes two fillups a month. That is because I have been trying to keep myself sane by driving places like Drumheller to camp out. There I can spend a day in prayer without interruption.

Now the whole point of this story is that I am on the right path. God wants me to know it. I seek him day after day after day after day and I try to pray. It isn't easy when you can't hear and when you do you have to chose "Is it God or Sin" for Sin strives with me like an evil spirit. And it is an evil spirit and that is why I want to pray.

So God lets me know that I am on the right path. I am doing the right thing. I am in the right lane and I am about to be blessed. I am about to be blessed with life as it should be. I am about to be blessed so I can catch up financially and I am about to be blessed so I can get off AISH. And I am going to catch a train to glory and God is going to use the story of Paul Bunyan. I am in the midst of watching Paul Bunyans story as told by Jonathan Winters. In it Paul comes and is taller then the clouds. He has an ax and the ax head is in the shape of a train. And the train is able to lift logs or carry them to the wood of time because the ax swings and the ax moves and Paul sweeps down a whirlwind and 40 acres is cleared in a minute.

 So in a way I like this story but it reminded me of pancakes and bacon and eating things in bacon grease. That is the stuff we used to lubricate the pan for our pancakes and they were so delicious we ate till we were full. And then we went out and used up that energy to have fun on.

And so this story is like what God has been sharing with me. He is like Paul and Paul is like Sal or Sally the great woman who cooked up the pancakes for all the loggers. And Paul B was the greatest logger of them all. And so it becomes key to our time also for we log on to our computers and we log off. And we carry loggers and Logarithm and log jams and key to log on and so on. It becomes the way life is that we are always trying to carry a swing of the ax and so the tree which was based on Sin and his power was cut down and it was used as an axle. And so the axle became the key to Paul and the video I found on May 12th at a garage sale. The garage sale I've dreamed of for Paul was one of those videos I picked up along with a few Superman.

Now the whole story of the bus is that God provided a way of escape. He took me into the spirit and into the spirit realm and took me to a land of freedom. And it is true I hear sin but Sin is being brought before the throne for answering to his crime. And that is the thing he did to men everywhere. And to Nature. And this really is happening. It isn't a joke. For if we could see the Lord we would know He is being angry and He has savored that anger for Sin with all his might. He knows how to build it up and how to carry it.

Now here is the key to Sin. And this is important. He is real folks. He isn't a joke. He is real and I had a hand in fighting him and helping God to capture him. It wasn't a joke and you will see it soon. It will be real and God isn't going to throw him into hell as yet. He wants me to try to serve Sin but they will serve someone called the Man of Sin instead. He is one who will carry the nature of evil to men and they will have to try to fit it into their name sake. If they are good or evil. And since most won't like it they will try to be evil without help from anyone. And that means the world is going into a crash and into a dive. For evil will not help them in their day of delivery. Nor will Sin. Only the true nature of men will show in that day. And so it will be a wild ride and it will begin when God is sure Sin is not sending up a fake ID. And that could be a week. So until then pray and seek and ask God for help. For He will send it and He will heal it and He will carry it to a new way. And it will become happy when time is no more. As in no more anger. For time is angry and time is frustrating and time is hurt by Sin. And that is the truth of the matter.