Turning the ree into glow

11/21/2007

Joel Akin

We live in a wage of sin. The wage is a world and the world is alive with it. The world is filled with war. The war is on. The war is real. The war is big. The war isn't some little battle one man faces. The war is life for those who fight. It is death for those who sit.

I fight for life. I fight alone. I fight with man and with those who turn away. I fight.

Yet I don't cast off those who turn nor do I turn away in scorn. I just say to doubt the word is to live in curses. Yet the curse isn't of you but of me. For I am a man. One man. One man who wins or loses.

So who then can be a man? Who then can stand? It is the lee of life who can. The lee is me. I am a lee man. I am a lee. I fight with man and with Sin. I fight on and I soldier on. I don't give up. I haven't stopped to faint. I haven't stopped to deed life to Sin. I have kept on battling. Even when I suffer.

Yet who can stand? For if I have a link today and erase it tomorrow who can  stand? For if I believe God is coming back and I date it for Thanksgiving who then can stand? For if Thanksgiving goes without a fight who can stand? For if I pray and after one time in my life faint over a date who can stand? I don't want to set time or date but I did. Was it a moment of weakness due to a longing of the heart? Perhaps. But if so it is one I wanted not to write. I am still of that mind but I wrote it by hope or by faith.

For if I write by hope I expect the evidence and if I wrote it in faith then I expect God. And so the answer is expect! For if God is the faith of a man then it is the faith of man who is why's to this story. For there is no one who would expect God. No one who can fight with prayer and expect to see anyone but Him.

The battle isn't the man but the battle is the Lords. For God is the ree who is the glow. It is the glow ree and the man is God. I wrote it by faith. I didn't close the heart and I didn't cast off the Lord. I fainted in the day of sorrow but I didn't turn. I didn't turn.

So to those who read this know I walk by faith. I walk by faith. I walk by faith and I have fainted. I was weak. I fell. I gave up inside but I kept on walking. I kept on walking. I didn't give up. I lost sight but I didn't give up. I didn't turn away. I didn't ignore the Lord. I faint not. I don't give up. I don't give in. I keep going even when it seems foolish. Even when the thought comes "It is not of God". I go on even when it seems there is nothing to give you. I go on because I am at war.

I asked God why, if he wrote the language, can it be taken 'off' to say that "I fight with God". The fact is Sin says "I fight against God" but not "I fight with Him" for fighting with and the same as fighting for. So the language of me or man is language of adverse man fighting with man or God. Or God fighting with me in prayer. So God fights with me. He doesn't fight against nor doesn't he fight down. Fighting down is the same as fighting for but God fights down. He fights down with prayer. He fights down with, and with is the same as for.

So the faint may faint. The sore may sorrow and the sore may shower me with sweat. Yet the Lord does not forsake the promise of His coming. He is God. He is the fair weather but not the fair weather friend. He goes into the sea and He finds the may of life. He finds the sea and sees the way to  it. He takes the lee man or LEE MEN and takes them up to the cop of life. He says "Who among you can stand?" Of course they yell "We will" but it is the day of trial and the day of sore vile. for the sore vile is named for those who can stand. For those who can stand with the Lord are very, very, very few. They are why I fight. For I fight faint. I cannot stand. I faint. I am weak. But I still pray.

And so I pray and I pray and I pray. I weep with prayer. I pray with hope. I go on with you. I go on. I fight with the desire to pray. I pray with the hope of reverse. I pray.

For who will stand? If God will carry me up to the hill and carry me up the mountain I think I can stand. But if he provides me with a recliner and a glass of iced tea it sure would be easier.

So with a smile I close. For that is pretty much where I'm at. Watching the view of things from the top. God doesn't faint. He is God. He is with me and He is with me. He will not let me down. He will carry me up and He will hold me dear and He will carry me to the top. And if necessary he will provide a recliner. And He will say "Don't be ashamed. For I will stand with you in prayer and they will chuckle. They might even wonder. For I will not faint. I will not let go. I will be there for you in the morn and be there for you in the day of Thanks and the day of Giving."