The day man stood up and said no

11/04/2007

Joel Akin

 Snow feel this November Sunday. It was a melting snow but it hit me softly in the eyes and made my tears blink with sorrow. I was listening to music and one was not to give up on your faith. It is a test of faith as it was put perhaps in another song. And it is this test which I hear coming from secular singers. People who are not called Christian but often hit me harder spiritually then many Christian artists. I love both types but I see God use secular to reach and reach is when you can't stand up loud enough to be heard.

I joined a group of writers called Helium September 20 and have written since then about a 180 short articles. I have obtained one star which is significant but recently I joined one of their contests. I felt guided by the father to try out for the health contest. I wrote a total of six articles during the course of the day and I enjoyed it. I saw my name starting to go up the list of contenders. And then for whatever reason they started removing articles from my name until this morning I wasn't listed in any form or fashion.

 I could blame people but what I need to know is how does it happen? For if articles are without prejudice do they take them out of running or are they just ignored by people in the business?

 it is this which mystified me for I saw I had a chance to at least be in running for a five dollar prize. A lot of work for five bucks but there is also the quest to find insight into the knowledge God has given me. It is deep and mysterious but I am living in an age of reason. And the age of reason is that man cannot find answers from God.

 So when I say this is an idea from God I become a dangerous crackpot. One who is not willing to accept the status quo of the doctors. The only thing is I deliberately states in 3 or 4 of the articles that these ideas might require doctors supervision and that doctors were wise. Someone they got eliminated as well.

 Even the story of my own life got rejected.

Now you might say that is the way of selling stories only this site is different. Everyone who abides by certain rules is allowed to place their articles on the site. As far as I know only Helium owners can totally reject an article. That would mean they got involved with all my articles and they saw things that would mean I wouldn't have lost just those but perhaps much of what I write since I speak about health issues a lot.

 If they are not involved no one else should have the power to remove my name from the list of contenders. And thus I get wondering if something else is going on. It becomes a war of sin vs me. Like my software which I ordered online. I had a receipt for it from the end of August. 5 weeks passed and so they resent it on October 12th. It never arrived again for the second time. So now I've been in prayer over it and God indicates its possible it is sin in the natural inspiring people to destroy things made from me.

Now if that doesn't make sense its because I can't prove I exist. I have one major gift and that is this; writing. I have prayer and prayer things which could be used but they are off my list for they require a voice or a steady hand and one other thing "God to be there to help."

So here is the quest. If I am the strongest prayer person on earth then I am also the forgotten man. I have reached my limit in writing for now. I wrote my heart out. I found secrets which would amaze the world. And for whatever reason they are erased from history as if I never existed. I write to God but He doesn't see me but He does know I exist. Only He can't talk to a reprobate man. At least that is the story.

 Of course reprobate is what sin is telling God I am. So if you want that ask him yourself.

 The point is I'm in a war without a way. I have no lead on money and no lead on that lost software. I have no one to stand up for me so I stand up with help of God. I give God the glory and I say "I am tired." And that is the way it is.