The price of life

January 25, 2008

 When Jesus came to give us life he proclaimed that he was the way, the truth and the life. Yet what if life as we had it wasn't in the physical but only in the spiritual? Is there even a hint of proof for this?

 Lets just say the facts speak louder then most words and by that I don't mean what Christ did but what he as a man didn't have time to do.

 We all know Jesus said "It is done" and it was. He had overcome the sin of the world and given us life and that more abundantly. Yet in the story we forget that Jesus came out with hair as white. That meant he had to fight a traumatic even that was so horrific his hair turned white.

To be that powerful a foe we have to deal with a spirit called time.

Time is a spirit of lie and counter suit. He does things in the spirit realm which are not easy to explain. He carries people to the will of man and gives them over to each other to fulfill their own lust. They do things that are so vile that no one could figure it out.

Yet there is a story in the make which is where I fit in. I went into battle with prayer that was consistent. That means I pray every single day for the battle to be won. And it is a war where if I don't pray I lose. Now when I say lose I mean the war as a whole. For if I fight and fail at the close of it then I fight and fail for everything done to this stage. It is part of the story of life eternal.

Now as one who is growing in knowledge I became part of the story in my quest to understand the purpose of pain. I saw pain as the row of men draining life from us. In reality life grows as the pace of life inside us grows. If we have life in us that is of Christ. If we have life of hope in us that grows as well. Each day we find that hope is the key to the lee and that is where you find me these days. IN the lee is the wit place where men and women go when they are severely hurt by the war.

I am hurt but slowly getting better. I am wore out but that also is being dealt with.

The point of life is to gain in help and so I have gained in it spiritually. That is the point of prayer and in prayer I have prayed for help. Each day I see for help in prayer and each day I wait for help to arrive. Though it doesn't there is no way I give up. I keep praying for the bee to arrive and fill the coffer with honey. And that is the will of God as well. He wants me blessed and healed. He wants me to see that I am not alone. He wants me to understand that life is the bay de noc and it is there where I will find a home. Of course it is not fully symbolic but literal in the sense of finding a home in Escanaba. It might seem strange but it was designed to be an escalation or escalating of time.

That means life moves forward and that is a good thing. God is with me in the bee and in the lee of life. It will be all right.

 I waited in vain for my meal to show up so around noon I fixed spicy chile. It made me feel a taste of reflux as I went down to try and rest. No one showed up to my knowledge.

 It isn't often they don't show up but today we had a frost show. Everything is white and blue and it is very beautiful. I am in the throes of cough and choke and it is the worst part of reflux. Of course why have it? I think when my schedule is off I fill it up myself but I'm disabled so I accept the first thing that comes along. That is toast which burned so bad it was black and hot chile which I fried in a skillet. Good but I ate it upstairs and it wore me out doing both.

Mom can't do it right now. The phone is ringing off the hook. She tried to get the phone service to accept the minutes she purchased at a discount. With dad having his colonoscopy this week he has been in a care home. The foot is off limits though he's getting better at walking on it. They want him out by Monday if possible. That could mean I go to pick him up which is fine but the stress on mom is tough. She is called by people who mean well and she is trying to keep the problems dealing with banking okay. The bank made a mistake and put their check in my account. They also took it out and put it in my sisters. So it has become another ring around the rosy and it just doesn't end.

So where is God? He doesn't look at problems but most are things he knows we can deal with. Yet He knows that when they hit they hit with time. Time is a spirit but this one is the part where he makes mistakes in others to make our life struggle. If that sounds odd its because we get more things going wrong then anywhere else. I believe he does this to bother people and to make a menace of himself.

It isn't over and it is still war yet God has shown me that I am on the pair of life and pair of life and pair of life and pair of life that keeps going on and on and on and on and on forever and ever and ever. And that is a mystery for today. What do you do with 8 life cards? Of course that is a pair of life which is in reality like N and D in the DNA complex of life. The A part is Christ and He is coming back to see if anyone else on earth is looking for him. Not because I don't but because we needed to state that as of last night life began.