Handmaid of the Lord

June 10, 2005

by Joel Akin

A long time ago before the earth was balanced there was a moment in time when God wanted the perfect wife. We may look at God having a wife as a bad thing. After all what man or God doesn't want a companion to help them with decisions and thoughts? But how do you get a wife if you've never had one? I can't think of a better way then building one to perfection.

In our day it is more of a Frankensteinish thought to build a wife. We are all raised in cultural obscurity based on the knowledge of lonliness. We all long for companionship of one kind or another whether its a Friday Crusoe or a Dog Cruso. We long for friendship, relationships, understanding, love, kindness and intimacy. The end result is it is understandable that God desired a companion. After all 'she' didn't really exist and neither did 'he' God was, to put it mildly, a composition of essential matters. A matter based on the principle of "We" thought. We thought is so involved in understanding that I cannot really grasp it. It is literally neither male nor female nor even it. But a composition of emotional thought based on power of life. There was no death at that time though there was nothing. Nothing was a linked affair based on the prepositon of light. Light held the equation and light held the equation for balance. It balanced out in the essential light matters.

If I liked to be alone then the principle of lonliness would be fun. In some ways it is. I like to be alone when some matters come along. For example when writing I like to think my thoughts into line after line without being controlled by others. Nor do I like people watching over my shoulder telling me what to write. It comes down to a matter of principle. If I write it and it comes out fine do I thank the spade or the Ace? Do I thank God or the line I wrote? I thank God for the talent and the knowledge but I still wrote it myself. I am not a robot that is controlled by other hands but an individual who has fought for this knowledge. It is mine to play with as I see fit even if others tell me it is wrong. I know there are times when I wrote some words in opposition to normal ways of seeing things but that is my choice and I should be allowed to make mistakes. Mistakes are a part of choice and choice says "I must chose straight, right or left or up or down or kitty corner" When we have only two choices we make mistakes at every turn. There are 360 degrees of life and I want to be able to move in those directions as I see fit.